I'm scared that one day I'm just going to stop thinking. I think i need to use this to write down everything so i will have a record of all my thoughts and everything that has happened to me. So from now on I'm going old school and keeping this as some sort of journal and I'm going to write in it everyday ok everyday is a bit much but every time i have something interesting to write about. I suppose there is a bit of vunerablity having this out on the net but i dont think anyone is going to read it. I'm going to totally disregard fullstops in the right places, commas and spelling yeah thats right my spelling sucks but i'm going to write down everything i can think of. THis will help me in the future with my potential job of being a journalist and one day I might have the courage to look back on everything i write and it will force me to think about me.

so many things in this world are beautiful and you have to go out and find them.

johnny b goode

lately I haven't been able to think properly its more like all more thoughts are jumbled or someone has already stolen all of my thoughts and ideas. Originality has gone out of the window and whats in is being the same. Nobody can escape it we are all the same no matter how hard we try to be different we are all classed as something or another. But hey who cares? I like to think about purple velvet rooms with french furniture drinking tea out of a hat with the mad hatter whilst wearing this alexander mcqueen creation.

this is absloutely amazing, i would love to wear this everywhere

wow suprisingly when you type in purple velvet room you acutually get a velvet room, though my velvet room would be a less tactastic

if i ever wanted to drink tea with someone like the mad hatter all i would have to do is book my self into the mental ward at my local hospital

waking the demon

I want to fly away with the male fairies

its times like these

I supose every person in this blue world believe they've a novel in them, but have you ever sat down and tried to write one? Well it takes tremendous effort and dedication, which I process niether or is it neither? The thing is I have all these ideas in my head and if I don't write them down they all build up inside and my brain goes on overload with all these ideas and thoughts. And the bloody problem is I can't orgainise my thoughts into managable sentences which is rather frustrating. I have all these great ideas on how to finish a book but never a great idea enters my head on how to start one. This is pretty much how am in life I think how great it would be to go somewhere like Mongolia, live thier and have Mongolian babies (ok I don''t actually think this its just an example) but never about the journey I would take to go to Mongolia. I think this is what a lot of people are like, I reckon in my 15 and a month years of wisdom we need to think more about the journey we going to take to reach our goals.



The guy on the left is super hot and we are going to run off together.





And we're going to live in a bathtub because we will be poor to start off.




But we'll rob from the rich and give to the poor, we''ll be the modern day Bonnie&Clyde

We will disobey the police and become heroes but of course we will spend a few years in jail.

But we'll escape and obviously write a book detailing every single movement in our lives and it wont be like any other book you ever seen in your godam lives.

And of course we'll have a few kids to live out our god forsaken name

THE END.

Jingle Bells

I suppose every year it creeps upon us like a creepy third cousin twice removed and its telling us that ohh we need to buy gifts for people we don't care about. But lucky for me I'm only young and don't have to worry about buying gifts for annoying people all I have to worry about is puting on a smile that isn't to fake when I recieve a gift clearly suitable for someone who still wets their bed and thinks santa still comes down the chimney.


I have a wish list:




An Alexander McQueen purse


Some very snazy looking cow boy boots






A Nevermind T shirt

An emerald ring

Oh and a peacock

But this is what I'll end up with


The third time running.....








This exact jumper




And some lovely porcelian dolls to add to my collection



But we can't all be picky and even if you don't love the gifts you love the people who give them to you,, well at least you're meant to.

rage against the machine

I think you should listen to these people but who am I to tell you what to do. I suppose people tell you not to do things that hurt you, is because they love you and I'm to blind to see that.


I also think our biggest battle in life is the battle agianst our minds, its our minds that tell us maybe we shouldn't do certain things and people need to get over that and I think we spend our whole lives fighting against our minds.

My mind is telling me no but my gut is telling me yes. What should I do?

yoko ono plastic

What is with women trying to change men?

Like Nancy changing Sid,

Or like Yoko and John?

Or even Courtney and Kurt?

My favourite couple is Yoko and John they seem rather sultry...... but mostly because I like the th 60s best, but I would have liked to been a punk in the 70s and I probably would have been a grunge kid in the 90s. But in the 2000s I'm me with a bit of this and that mixed in.

Don't change what you can not change and don't allow yourself to be changed. For who you are is priceless.